The Bible (Psalms 90:10) says, “The days of our years are threescore years and ten; and if by reason of strength they be fourscore years, yet is their strength labour and sorrow; for it is soon cut off, and we fly away.”
So, seventy years are a little less than 25,000 days. That seems like a big number. But at the end looking back, it’s the blink of an eye. That time is swallowed up in sleeping and commuting to work and drinking bad coffee and keeping your boss from firing you and fighting with vendors and trying to satisfy clients and paying the bills. Hopefully you spent enough time with your wife and kids so that they had some inkling of who you really are.
The best days are carrying the babies home from a family party where everyone was glad to see each other and there was something to celebrate; a holiday or an occasion. Or taking the kids to the seashore for a week or two in the heat of July. Or maybe taking your wife out someplace special for a big anniversary.
And then the kids get married and then the grandchildren come along. So, there’s a progression. The cycle comes around again. Only now you’re on the other side of the wheel. Way out there on the far side. You recognize the program but now you’re seeing it from far away.
So, the thing to do is try to make yourself useful and try to add a little something to the plot of the story. You’re no longer the lead. You’re not even near the center of the stage. You’re kind of the guy in the wings with a copy of the script ready to whisper the lines to the actors if they forget their lines. Well, it’s still useful and who knows maybe there’s a non-speaking role for you as a spear carrier. That’s when you get to be backup driver for soccer games or band practice. After all it’s honorable service.
But it is weird how life works. You really can’t delay gratification. You can’t work for forty years to make enough money to make the last years worth having missed what came before. You have to figure out how to squeeze the joy out of the process of living. You have to enjoy being a kid and a young man and your prime and what comes after that. You have to find some friends along the way, go on those coffee walks at break time and go to your kids’ soccer games and their kids’ baseball games and volunteer around town and even do really annoying stuff like getting involved in local politics.
Like I said, it’s the blink of an eye. Twenty-five or thirty thousand days is a short span when so much is eaten up by routine that is almost unavoidable. I guess if you’re a billionaire it’s a little different but I’ll bet it’s still the same tradeoffs, responsibilities versus joy.
Of course I haven’t seen the last page. As Shakespeare said,
“Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,
Is second childishness and mere oblivion,
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything.”
Well, I better hurry up and get my ducks in a row.
I’ve made my “three-score and ten”, and a few more. Now it’s a question of will my exit be a slow fade or sudden death?
It becomes a question at some point.